In memory of a man once rejoiced.

When a son was born, I think, the whole universe rejoiced! Not only his family, especially when he was the first born. So, when a son of a man died, I think, he should be remembered and also rejoiced.
This is a story of a son of a man, that once so powerful in his family, and praised by many people. But he was only a son of that man. His family expected great things happen from him, but once he couldn't deliver, he got kick out and was ashamed of that family. One thing for sure, he was once rejoice, and he was a human being, just like the rest of us. He was created, and given life, by our higher being, and never once, he felt even a slightly higher than other human being. After all, we all created from ashes and will be ashes again, ashes to ashes. Not one of us, as a human being, bury in gold mining, or outer space, we will be bury in the ground next to the worms.
This man had a wife, who I believe loved him very much, regardless her complain of being too tired to take care of him. Yes, as a wife, sometimes, we all got tired, and hoping, this burden will go away, the needs to take care of a person who we vowed to take care of each other, for better or worse, till death do us apart, still remained until his death bed. Whether the wife delivered the vow or not, I don't think it's for me the judge.
It is so sad that he had to die alone, not surrounded by people who loved him and remembered him as a human being. His family were there, out side the room, and it took two hours to find out that he passed away already.
That day I learned, that we should rejoice and be graceful with the ones who love us every day, and remember my vow in front of God, and many people, that I will stay for life to the one I married. For better or worse, till death do us apart. That day I remember that no one is higher than me, and I am not higher than any one. We are all the same in the eyes of God.

Good bye Kouya

As a teacher, it is always hard to say good bye to my student, especially, when I won't get a chance to see them ever again. Today, I had to say goodbye to one of my student. He is from Japan, and his family had to move back.
When he came in to my class, he was only a year and a half, he was a little boy who used to cry a lot and looking for his mama. His mama on the other hand, was a very soft spoken, polite, and big hearted woman. She used to carry him on her back, just as many Japanese mom would do.
So, as he cried and cried, I put him on my back and rocked him from side to side, to comfort him, to let him know, that he was secure in his very new class, teachers and school.
The result were unbelievable, he got used to the school very quick, enjoyed every activities that we had, yes, it took him a month to get comfortable, but for the teachers it was all worth ed. He loves school now, he plays in the playground for the whole day, and doesn't want to go home.
His mom spread the news to all of her Japanese friends about our school, about the good teachers we had, as a result, we had many new enquiries from many Japanese, we are so glad and thankful for her.
I made him a special Jinbei from my special batik collection. And tomorrow, the jinbei with dragon fly pattern will fly with him to Japan.
Good bye Kouya, you are always in my heart. Have a great journey, and hope you will remember me one day.

A life

Each morning, every time I woke up, after being graceful and thankful to be alive for one more day, I found myself wishing and wishing, that I was in other places, far far away from where I live now.

One thing that I realized and for what ever reason, I am still amaze on me, if you do know me, you won't ever think that I above all people, is able to do this. When I decided to go home, I never prepared to see what is coming. I just live. I just live through the rain, and flood, through the cray traffic jam, that took me 4 hours to go from my mom's house to mine. Did I get crazy? Sometime, but now, each time it rains, I made sure, I charged my laptop battery, I made sure, I had the latest movies in my car, so I could watch them during those time. I made sure my cell phone battery was full, in case. I did all this preparation because I know what is coming, and I can't do much about it!
I embraced myself, when my mom just took Leia to go to ciawi, and instead of asking a permission she just texted me with statement that Leia was on the way with her to ciawi, and when leia called and cried, begged me to pick her up, I was calm enough to say, "No one force you to go to ciawi Leia, too bad that you have changed your mind, I will see you tomorrow" and I texted my mother with statement saying, "I expect you to bring Leia back to raden saleh back at 10 o'clock tomorrow morning. Thank you for taking care of Leia!" As my little sister told me, I did make sure that Leia is my daughter, not every one's. Then, I went home, and spent a lovely Friday night with my husband alone.

Sometime, I confuse, and don't know what to do with this kind of situations, tried not to hurt anyone, or some time I did hurt some one. Somehow, I wondered how did I do this. Somehow I wonder, I must do this for a reason, good reason hopefully.

So, today, I prepared for anything that will come up in my life. And I thank God, that I surrounded with people, yes, they are crazy people and so am I, but I know one thing for sure, they love me.
And one thing that I know for sure, If there were something happened to me, I would like one of my family take a good care of my Leia.

When we grow up by Leia n Ray

On Monday (02 Nov, 09), around 5:59PM, I received SMS from Leia's teacher:

Auntie Lina: Tas, Ray proposed Leia today, and she said "YES!" Congratulations!

My replied: Whaaaaat?? Seriously????

Right away, I turned to Leia and asked, more of interrogating style but undercover, "Leia, did Ray ask you something today?"

Leia (her eyes were on the playhouse Disney channel), "Nooo....he didn't ask anything!"
Then, I said, "Are you sure?"
Leia, "I will whisper it to you, "Ray said, when He grows up and Leia grows up, we should get married!"
And I said, "And what do you say?"
Leia said, "I said, YES! we should get married when we grown up!"
I said...."What is married, Lei?"
She answered, "You know mama, with the dress and everything... By the way, do I have the dress yet?"
Still amuse with her questions, and our discussion, Leia added, "So, when can Leia and Ray get married? Like how old?" I
said (on the top of my head), "When you are 30!"
Leia asked, "And Ray?"
I said, "Same thing!"
Leia smiled at me, and said, "Ok then!" "I'm ready to go to bed!"

One of Leia's teacher is getting married, and Ray will be the ring bearer. Of course, this wedding thing, new thing for both of them, and they started to wonder and discover lots of things about this. I am just amazed, on how quick they get this concept!
It is sweet though, but yet, as a mother, I just can't believe this happen this fast, she is just turn 4 not 24!
Whole world are changing, I have to keep up! Faster I mean!!!!