Down By the Plaza Indonesia, created on May 13, 2006

Early afternoon. See lots of pretty ladies all around. See the cashier operated the credit card machine, cha...cha..choo choo...you got your merchandise.

There are lots of things that you can find in that place. Mostly yummy and expensive stuff, but most important thing, is, where all the pretty, skinny, bright, shinny skin ladies meeting point. When I said ALL I meant ALL.

The body image is everything in this country. You think America is bad enough on making body image from barbie to models. I think, this country is worst, it is full of anorexic and diet obsession woman. And I think, I used to be one, or maybe I still am.

After I gave birth, I went through lots of changes in my life, including, my body. I used to be a size 0, now I went up to size 6. Just this afternoon, I wanted to try on pants, I told the sales representative my size, instead just zipped her mouth and got my size, she had to say, "ooh...the large one maam." Gees, I thought, all the people from women Rights, or from bla..bla..bla..women organization should come up here, and march down sudirman and do demonstration on bunderan HI, just to persuade the government to make constitution, so women here in Jakarta can eat normally and ignore on how the body image should be. Seriously...I really wish that I can go back to my normal size, I wish that everyday after I gave birth. Too bad, I did not follow the tradition of many mothers here in foreign city, which is, after you gave birth, instead eating healthy so you can nurse your baby, you have to stop eating, until you go back to your normal size. Forget breast feeding, it is just for the poor, and forget to be a role model, so your children can have a healthy diet, they should be skinny so they can fit to skimpy tank top anyway. Just stop eating...

After reading so many parenting magazines, and repeated twice in every edition, I came to realize, that maybe I don't have to go back to my normal size. Maybe it is okay for me to have a bit bigger size than I had before. I am a mother now, and yes, I can embrace a bit about it. I admit, I am still planning my weight loss now, but maybe into more healthier way.