It is so hard sometimes to live in this world, for me, it is easier to live than to adapt to the life itself. I got so used to my life before, sometime I compare and continue to compare to what I am going trough now. The fact is my life is different now and I am still adapting in my new life.
I am a kind of a person that will not regret anything in my life. What ever was in the past, I would leave it behind with an open heart. All the memories I will keep in deep in my heart, because it was a good one, and sadly, it will just happen once. Yes, I just realize this one, I was a child one, with a happy childhood, then, I was a teenager, with a happy yet rebellious teenage hood. Then, I moved on to college hood and single hood, with a sad, happy, wild, and extremely wild hoods. And I am in a motherhood stage. I feel I have done it all. Looking back, I have to admit, to how many boyfriends I had dated, beers and alcoholic beverages I had drink, bars I had hopped in, pack of cigarettes I had smoke, and girlfriends I had passed on. And well...my readers, they were plenty!! I am now can say, been there done that!! No regrets. It was so damn fun!
Now, I am a wife and a mother. Yes, life is not as wild as it was before, calmer and settle. It is not always happy, but yet, it is not always sad. It is not always bright, but yet it is not always gloomy. I can smile now as I typed this blog, because I accept my life now. Once a person told me this, "And we thought that you are happy!" and I stunned to hear such phrase, what make you think that I am not? It is not always in the upper part, but yet, it is not always down part either. I will not pretend on who I am. I know for sure that I will not have a perfect life according to a dictionary or to other judgemental people, but I know for sure, that I HAVE a perfect life, that, I will not ask for more. I count my blessing everyday, and I will live my life to the fullest! I choose to live this way, I who decide that, not other judgemental people! It is a beautiful life not matter how hard it is.
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