Those 2 words...Good Bye, created on 03/12/06

I kept wonder and wonder if this life will be much more interesting that it already has. My life for instance, I don’t think I can do much more than enjoying every second of it. That’s the way it is I think, or I suppose.
In the past two years, my life had been change so drastically, for example, I worked as a social worker for the welfare families, and then it changed to a teacher teaching those rich wealthy children. I was single and enjoying my single life, then, I got married, and have a child. I was a single independent woman before, now I go back to be a devoted daughter to my parents, but still a rebellion daughter in law. Well…one thing has to stay the same, I decided. Over these years that I spent in a foreign country, that sad, because that foreign country is my country where I was born, and once I vowed that I will not ever forget where I come from.
Along the way of my adulthood, I discovered and recovered a lot about myself. Through those changes of knowledge, people, books, and stuffs, I wonder and wonder if I would go back to where I was before. Or, if I can do it all over again, will I go back then with what I had now?
I miss lots and lots of things, friends, weather, and stuffs. I miss the lakes, the snow, the Ridgedale, Southdale, Mall of America and one of the dale that I can even remember, was it Rosedale? I miss the big bowl, the mandarin kitchen, and the hamburger with the cheese inside. I miss fall, the leaves, the first snowfall, the lilac, the spring, the summer, the humidity, and the rain. I miss grand avenue, the Yarnery, the Caribou, the Starbuck. I miss the southeast community, the turtle park, the Como Avenue, my old apartment with the terracotta windows. I miss Izzy ice cream, grand o’le, Edina creamery, and the entire creameries there are there. I miss going to work everyday, going down to the steps in not so lovely neighborhood but I knew that I loved every step of the way there. I miss looking at the smile from my boss Katherine and my dear friend Katie, and then later we made plan to sneak out to get a chai tea at Dunn brother’s coffee shop. I miss the cold, the really cold one.
I really miss all of those things, that I practically who I was before. I have to discover myself as a daughter, a wife and a mother. And in this life, however, there are lots of things that I can’t miss.
I can’t miss the growth of Leia, smile at my husband when Leia first said “Bapak”, the joys of my parents when they saw Leia, her 1st steps, 1st bday, 1st words and 1st temper tantrum that she threw.
I do however, have a faith that one day, I will write about how I miss this life when I go on to the next one.
Lots of things, and friends I left behind. They will still be in my heart. The thing is, when I left, I don’t want to say good bye, I kept telling people, that this is not good bye, we will see again. But some time, we have to say good bye, we might not see each other again ‘till maybe a long long time. So with this, I am saying good bye to all, but don’t worry, my friends are always in my heart, those places are the most beautiful places that I’ve ever been in my life, those precious moments are staying with me forever.